Another Update

So right now I am pretty emotional and if I sit down and think about my little boy I will go emotionally crazy again so I am going to keep this pretty short. Seth was confirmed today with the virus CMV. He got it while I was pregnant from me. That is the hardest thing for me...I got my little boy sick and right now no matter what people tell me I feel like there was something that I could have done to not get him sick. I know that there is no way of knowing that I had CMV especially when all the doctors tell me that there was nothing anyone could have done about it. About 60% of all adults have had CMV the thing is if you get it when you are pregnant. The plus to this is we know that if we decide to have more kids that there is no way to pass it along again.

We do not know what the future is going to hold for Seth. Right now he is a big boy which is a very good sign, eats well, poops, pees, and farts just like all babies do and of course sleeps. We just have to watch him especially in the first year of life. There might be some issues or there might not be any at all. He is perfect in our eyes no matter what its just really hard for me to deal with the guilt that I feel. Prayers are welcome :)

While I'm Waiting

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting
I will serve you
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

I will serve you
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord